The play fighting fist that always misses
the “I love you really” flirtatious disses
The secret notes passed under the table,
Please help me, my heart’s unstable.
Slutty words on your lips
Wandering hands on my hips
An excitable few seconds of heated passion,
“Your body’s fit” uttered in a secretive fashion.
That knowing sparkle in your eye,
that sensuous smile that makes my heart die,
The rare moments you hold onto me,
Oh I could just melt into your body.
I’m weak and you carry my on your shoulder,
I’m my own worst enemy and you’re my only soldier.
These secrets that nobody else ever knows
you ride with my always, through my highs and my lows.
Breathless kisses on my neck,
boy you put me in an orgasmic wreck.
Suggestive whispers I’ll never forget,
this is a night I’ll never regret
Morning skies envy the charm that is yours
when you’re alongside me the rain never pours.
With astonishing elegance, the stars brightly shine
sharing our fantasies, making you mine.
Mars – he commands and his victim does blush
Venus – her heart’s swept away by a rush
This time unstung by fate’s fatal menace
She is an angel that blind cupid blesses.
Hurt is healed by a spirit kindred
he stands dishevelled, somewhat bewildered
hurt bows down – accepts defeat,
cowers away, as by love he is beat.
The love you give is my Achilles’s heal
I thought I was invincible, that my heart could seal.
Upon my heel lives a heart shaped soar,
You, my love, fell from a shooting star.
Grey cloud and a weeping sun,
In the Spring my troubles begun.
Daises crinkle in the fierce rain
crows do squawk a joy that’s feign.
Pulsating veins with thunderous blood,
disintegrating boundaries between bad and good.
Identity stripped, another statistic
A personality shredded by nails of plastic.
C’mon my sweetheart don’t you cry
all these bad times will pass you by.
Blind eyes, mute lips, an ignorance so bliss
Tell me someone, why I feel like this.
Who do I turn to when I feel there is no Lord?
Where do I run when society is based on fraud?
Small talk, fake smiles, we’re all so phoney
I want to be left alone; yet I’m tired of feeling lonely.
I never open up but always feel cracked
I’m so defensive, too many people are attacked.
All I want is my bed so I can curl up in a ball,
cower under my covers and ignore it all.
The future’s inevitable, things will change
once again my life is about to rearrange
I’ll make it through, I’ll adapt
but right now I’m a mouse, trapped.
Caught in the claws of the cat,
I either take a stand or be a mat.
These days my muscles have no energy.
I’d like a spirit healing remedy.
The strain of disappointment is too much to bear
my burden is hefty and I have no emotions to share
dilapidated memories of the girl I used to be
I feel nothing at all. Least of all – me.
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Shredded skin upon her cheek,
hear her paranoia shriek.
Poison thoughts – a heart gone cold
Noone offers her a hand to hold.
Daddy’s no longer by her side,
her lonely soul needs a place to hide
away from reality, cold and raw.
A place where she can feel no more.
Scarred eternally by her past
but she forces the memories to always last
Time will never play a part
in healing her wounded heart.
That poor little girl on the stair!
Ageing quickly and losing her hair.
How she wishes for a life that has never been,
she tries to avoid all she has seen.
Mommy left her just crying there
and even now, people stare
at the girl’s needless loss of blood.
No-one really understood.
Would it really ever fare
that the broken girl upon the stair
should no longer have to fight
the overwhelming power of life?
All these years ago, life left a mark
and now at night she weeps in the dark
Why was life never fair
for the lonely girl on the stair?
Imprisoned angel
As I sit here and cry
sorrow’s angel takes to the sky.
As I sit here and cry
Another angel learns how to fly.
As I sit here and lie to you,
Hell’s angel is born, bold and true
As I sit here and lie to you
Angel’s tears drop, just a few.
Majestic beauty, a magnificent view
wonderful wings protecting you,
An angel soaring high above
another friend for you to love.
As I sit here and my pain bites,
hell’s angel ascends to new heights
as I sit here and my pain bites
the angel imagines formidable sights.
Just another friend for you to love,
but being you, you never could.
Torn between what’s right and wrong,
your heart couldn’t love for very long.
As I sit here and softly sing,
a shred destroys the angel’s wing.
As I sit here and softly sing
An angel’s hurt it a terrible thing.
As I sit here, frail and small
My angel slowly begins to fall
As I sit here, frail and small
I feel my angel being mauled.
Maybe I will never know what it is to belong,
I slaughtered a beauty with my depressing song
I distressed an angel that was sent for me
Perhaps my soul was never meant to be free..
Shame
Don’t be ashamed to hurt to cry or to be sorrowful.
No man can deny this of themselves.
Pain shoots through man like venom,
Hurt stings like a wasp
Sorrow seeps through man like water.
Tears leak like rain from a cloud
But never be ashamed.
You cry, you hurt
it makes your inner self stronger.
If you bottle it up, you just can’t cope.
So leave your heart run free like a stream
Leave your tears fall with the rain
Leave your pain be swept away by the wind
Just never be ashamed
Moonlight boy
Captured under your arms embrace
I’m a dirty angel, fallen from grace.
Weak to the temptation of my forbidden desire,
you’re hot to the touch, I’m playing with fire.
The sun beating down, romping in our joy,
the wind’s harsh whisper reminding me I shouldn’t be here with you boy.
Your tantalising taste pulls the keys of my conscience
the passing people break the incessant silence.
The lake torments the banks with its harsh billows
drowning out the creak of the eminent willows
that crowd around us, but offer no protection,
threatening to declare our state of affection.
Hand in hand, you make me feel at ease
your kisses make me breathless, my heart starts to seize.
Your immense blue eyes exploring mine
two separate bodies, but our feelings entwine.
Dumbfounded by your psychedelic smile
my virulent fears return for a while.
You hold me close and melt them away
like the moon that thrusts the night’s clouds into day.
Moonlight boy, shining bright
I wanted to hold on to you, hold you so tight
with your fleeting hands and your looks so red,
my imagination is running wild in my head.
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I was so determined to leave you behind
I thought I could erase you from my mind.
I’ve been agonising – trying to rid this feeling,
but you came back and sent me reeling.
I was proud of myself for letting go,
I thought my heartache wouldn’t show.
You came back with all guns blazing,
I fell to the floor with both knees grazing.
Angelic Satan, so sour and sweet
Please can you tell me when our hearts will meet?
Our friendship is nothing but a tease
you hold my heart but hide the keys.
To your grace I’ve fallen victim,
your love could fill me to the rim.
What are you afraid to give?
Live to love and love to live.
You come charging into arms that were closed
as was an eagle, I was supposed
to see your plan and stay away
but you made my arms open up anyway.
Straight away you’re in this naive mind of mine,
but are you just feeding my a pretty line?
I yearn so much for this to be real
Angel of joy, you make me feel
in a world that’s dangerous, safe and sound.
I feel beautiful when you’re around.
But is this just another ploy?
I can’t bear to be emotion’s toy.
You take me to a place I’ve never been,
you’ve given me a hope I’ve never seen
I’m a majestic castle under attack
ever since you came crashing back.
To my mom and her depression
Please Mommy, let me in.
I have so much love to give.
Please Mommy, having emotion isn’t a sin
Just down your guard and start to live.
Please Mommy, don’t shut me out
I hate the thought of you being alone
Please Mommy, don’t start to shout
Life can be great, you just need to be shown.
Please Mommy, don’t be scared of affection
“I love you” I, too, need to be told.
Please Mommy, you don’t deserve this sanction
Stop punishing yourself and onto happiness take hold.
Please Mommy, stop living in apprehension
Why do you have so many fears?
Please Mommy, I’m tired of this tension,
I know deep inside you cry painful tears.
Please Mommy, stop being so resentful
Why are you so quick to hate?
Please Mommy, this life is hurtful
But happiness will come, just you wait.
Please Mommy, won’t you believe
that not everyone is out to hurt you.
Please Mommy, just accept my love,
not everyone will betray you, it’s just not true.
Please Mommy, just try and smile.
Open your heart, Mom, it’s a must.
Please show you love me, just for a while.
Can you even begin to trust?
Please Mommy, don’t break my heart.
Together we can win this war.
But Mommy, you’re ripping me apart
I’m starting to forget what I’m living for.
Dreamer
On the surface I’m fixed and steady
but in my heart I’m just not ready.
How can you tell though? You’re just looking in.
How could you search me and see my sin?
Outside I’m focused and exact
but little do you know, it’s all an act.
You see, deep inside I’m a dreamer
It’s the only thing I want – to be her.
’cause that girl is big and strong
she can easily admit when she’s wrong.
She’s in love with all the world
and smiles every time destiny uncurls.
But that is her, so who am I?
A little insecure and very afraid
hiding beneath this mask my tears have stained.
Accompanied by pain and choked by blood
I won’t explain. I never could.
In the mirror, I see the dream
A girl that everyone else has seen.
But when I go to sleep at night
noone understands my fright.
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